Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Birth Story

We took a birthing course at Rex hospital and the instructor asked that we email our birth stories out to the class... here is my email along with some sweet pics!

Hi everyone!
Marshall Isaiah White was born on 10/19/12 @ 11:06 pm. 6 lbs, 11oz & 19/25 inches long. (On his due date!!!)
 
My water broke early that morning (about 4:15 am). I had been to the doctor several times that week and had already asked tons of questions, including how quickly I should race to the hospital if my water breaks at home. I'm glad I asked those questions because it helped me not to spaz out on the actual day. We took showers,made sure we had everything packed, ate some breakfast, then called the doctor, then our parents. Everyone else on our huge list got a mass text.

Once we got to the hospital, we were told it was a very busy delivery night/day and we got the last available bed! When the nurse came to check me, I failed the amniotic fluid test and they talked about how it might be a false alarm... I was thinking "there is NO WAY that was a false alarm!!!" My water must have broken toward the top because there was a dry spell for a moment. By the time the doctor got there, we were in full-fledged water mode again and there was no question. At that point it was somewhere between 8 & 9am and I had not started contracting on my own yet.  They started pitocin and my contractions began and were 1-3 minutes apart the whole time. By 2 or 3pm I asked for some Stadol which definitely took the edge off - still felt the contractions but didn't seem to mind as much and I could actually relax in between them. By this point I think I was talking about an epidural with the doctor and nurse but they really encouraged me to hold off as long as possible just because I was not dilating and they were thinking it could be well into the next day before I had the baby. Well - I couldn't wait too long and asked for the epidural around 5 or 6 - and let me tell you, that anesthesiologist was there lickety-split! The epidural worked so well that I couldn't even move my right leg! We stayed on the pitocin for the next few hours, but as the pitocin went up, Marshall's heartbeat went down. They would stop the pitocin for a while until the baby's heartbeat would level out, then they would start the pitocin up again. They were trying to get me to dilate but I never got past 4 centimeters. After the first time the heartbeat problem happened, the doctor started hinting at the possibility of a cesarean. I was fine with whatever they had to do as long as I got a baby by the end of it. Around 10pm, the doctor came back in and talked about how I was not progressing and the baby wasn't dropping, so he felt like we wouldn't get much farther on the path we were on. My literal response was "let's get this party started". I was ready for the c-section and to meet my baby! Before I knew it, I was on the table with a room FULL of people who were going to operate on me. (Such a helpful part of class when we walked through what a c-section might be like!) I wasn't really nervous until I was on the table with the curtain up. They make the daddies change into scrubs in another room and don't call them back in until they are sure you are numb and ready. I kept asking for him, I was afraid it would be over before he was there! Before Justin got there to comfort me, there was the absolute nicest anesthesiologist leaning over my head with his eyeballs like 2 inches away from mine (that's all I could see of his face) talking me through everything. He was just wonderful! Once Justin came in, it was a matter of minutes for us to meet Marshall. The doctor and my anesthesiologist friend talked us through every step of what was happening. I remember hearing several scissor snipping noises when they weren't talking us through anything and I was wondering what was going on. But then, we heard this scratchy little crying noise! It was our son! I could never begin to do that feeling any justice by typing words to describe it. They showed us the baby really quickly then whisked him away to the room next door to get cleaned up and measured. When they called Justin back to be there for that, he was up and moving so fast that he nearly kicked over the chair he was sitting on! After what seemed like an eternity, he came back with our baby! Unbelievable, indescribable feeling!

Come to find out, it is a really good thing that we didn't try much longer to have a vaginal birth. Marshall was not directly down into my pelvis, he was a little crooked and getting caught, so that's why I wasn't dilating.... he just couldn't get down there. Also, he was "sunny side up" - he was face up instead of down. And the scariest thing of all - the umbilical cord was wrapped around his neck 4 times - that's what all the snipping was all about. The moral of this story is - birth plan, shmirth plan - it's nice to have your desires in the back of your mind, but it's important to go in knowing that the medical staff is going to recommend what they view to be the best possible course of action for you and your child.

I can't wait to read all of your stories! You are in for an amazing treat. It's hard work being pregnant and waiting to meet your child... even harder work going through labor... and then the first weeks of their lives are even harder with lack of sleep and worrying if you're doing everything right. But it's all so worth it when they have an exam and the pediatrician tells you that they are healthy and growing well.

PS - the staff at Rex is great and very helpful. Use the nursery if you can, even if it's for just a 30 minute nap.. YOU WILL NEED IT!!!! :)

Best wishes!!
Justin, Jessica & Marshall

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Baby Showers!

BLOG CATCH-UP TIME! My goodness... pregnancy makes you tired? Lazy? Crazy? I don't know, but there is a lot to talk about so this is going to be a long one... here goes!

BABY SHOWER #1:
Very sweet sisters and friends threw this shower for us. It was at Jason & Holly's house. So much fun, so many loving people and Marshall got the hook-up. I'll let the pictures do the talking.

Auntie Nikki got the games going...
 All the little girlies were very interested!
Fun owl cake!
 My sister Jennifer made this fruit baby! Isn't this the cutest thing you've ever seen!?!!

Aunt Holly, Mrs. Patsy and cousin Vaiden all prepping for the party:
Lots of cute owl bags! 
 Precious gift from precious Cassandra.
 Pretty decorations from Aunt Vanessa!
And I don't have a good picture of Sara but she was a big part of throwing this sweet shower too!

Baby Shower #2: This was a small shower in Charlotte, thrown by my college friends. So sweet!
Marbee made some amazing brunch food... 
 The girls got us some very precious gifts...
 First , the decor looked like this:
 Then they switched it... hehehe...



Sweet friends!



 Baby Shower #3
My Co-Workers tricked me into thinking we were about to go into a meeting, but then we went to Maggiano's instead! It was a delicious lunch and they presented me with a gift card to Target that will be so helpful.

Marshall, Justin and I are very blessed and feel very loved! Can't wait to meet our sweet boy!

More posts to come re: Marshall's room, baby classes, etc... :) Thanks for reading!

Saturday, August 4, 2012

Frozen baby update

This is a fun letter to get in the mail. I still shake my head and think 'what a weird concept'! Luckily our out of pocket costs have been really low so far in comparison to other families. (Thanks be to GOD for providing my job with amazing benefits.) But this is like a $175 increase from the price we were quoted during our retrieval process! We will happily pay it just because you can't put a price on family but the first thing I said to Justin when he asked "didn't they tell us it was going to be $300 a year?" was "it doesn't matter; people are so desperate to have a family that they will pay whatever it takes."

Friday, July 27, 2012

Sweet Cousins

Marshall is so lucky to have a bajillion loving cousins. Check this sweet scene out. They are feeling him kick!!!

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Today was a good day

Today, my sister and sister-in-law went to buybuybaby with me to ensure I had the right stuff on my registry. I'm so grateful for Jennifer & Holly. They helped so much by sharing their mommy insight and having fun with all the baby stuff. They even stayed after I had to leave for work to finish scanning stuff in. In hindsight I wonder if it truly was a good idea to let my prankster sister hold the gun... Plaster belly cast, anyone?

Anyway, after that fun adventure I worked a looooooong day and then came home to a bunch of gifts from my coworker Megan! She totally hooked Marshall up!

Definitely feeling loved. Today was a good day.

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Mommy

I was just thinking about how many times a day I say "mommy" now. Just "mommy". Either out loud or in my head. Every time I'm sad. If an image of that last week pops into my mind. If
I think of something she said to me or did for me at one point and wish I would have told her how much it meant to me. If I think of something stupid I did at one point and I want to apologize. Just "mommy" is all that comes out. Funny thing is, I don't actually recall a time in my life where I called my mom "mommy"- even when I was little. I really only started calling her that when she got sick. "My poor mommy." or "My pretty mommy." Wonder where that came from? And now all I think about is how I'm going to be a mommy...

I promise I'll get some good news posts going soon....

Monday, June 18, 2012

Load of crap

Well... Hmmm... Ummm... How do I start this? This is my first blog post since Mom passed away. And in my last blog post she was getting all prettied up in honor of her grandkids' dance recital. We were planning what we were going to do when she got out of the hospital- talking about going shopping for dresses and planning a beach trip. Talking about how she was sad she was going to miss the recital but we would have a special viewing party whenever the recital video was complete. We were also talking about how she was going to feel better by the time the baby was born so she could come stay with me for a while & teach me how to do this mom thing. This is all still so unreal and hard to wrap my mind around. No words will do this justice but I feel the need to keep the blog going. It just really sucks that I will write my blog posts and then I won't receive messages like the ones below. Man this sucks! What a load of crap. This has been the tag line amongst the family ever since Mom passed. It's just the only way to describe it. We think it's funny because the most proper Cossette is the one to coined the phrase... so it makes us giggle. Sweet sweet Holly (she got the Cossette name by marriage - man we're lucky). Even her kids have caught on... Our pastor gave a sermon on sustaining grace and saving grace just 2 Sundays ago (how fitting- I bawled the entire time), and Holly was asking the girls a few days later if they understood the difference in the two types of grace. Holly was reminding them that saving grace is God's way of providing a way for us to Heaven, and sustaining grace is how God helps us get through... "things that are like a load of crap?" --one of the girls piped in. Yes, girlies, that's exactly what sustaining grace helps us through. "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." (Psalm 34:18 NIV).

Yes, Justin is like my Dad. Solid as a rock & silly at the same time. Thanks for teaching me how to recognize a good man, Mom. :)

My feelings would get hurt if I thought Mom wasn't reading - but I was also on hormones and my feelings would get hurt by a lot of things... I guess mom knew that and wanted to make sure I knew she was reading.




She was pretty excited. "Yiipeeeeeeee!!!!!"

I have to read this over and over again. Yes, GOD KNOWS BEST. Mom's gone to Heaven. For a reason. For HIS reason. And I have to find comfort in that. Maybe one day I'll understand that reason but for now I have to trust & have faith.


And sometimes it makes me feel just a little bit better just to say THIS IS SUCH A LOAD OF CRAP!