I was just thinking about how many times a day I say "mommy" now. Just "mommy". Either out loud or in my head. Every time I'm sad. If an image of that last week pops into my mind. If
I think of something she said to me or did for me at one point and wish I would have told her how much it meant to me. If I think of something stupid I did at one point and I want to apologize. Just "mommy" is all that comes out. Funny thing is, I don't actually recall a time in my life where I called my mom "mommy"- even when I was little. I really only started calling her that when she got sick. "My poor mommy." or "My pretty mommy." Wonder where that came from? And now all I think about is how I'm going to be a mommy...
I promise I'll get some good news posts going soon....
Don't fret my Jessie!!! You are going to be a great mommy! And then you will feel the love your "mommy" felt for you! I've been going through the same shoulda woulda couldas months later... Our moms know we did the best we could given the situations! They know everything now... Luv you
ReplyDeleteI know what your talking about, except for me its momma......I would never call her momma, it was always Mom.....but when I think of her or talk to I always say momma.ronda
ReplyDeleteFrom Marbee via Facebook but she hit the nail on the head so I had to re-post:
ReplyDeleteFunny how you blogged about this bc I was just thinking the same thing the other day!! I have always called my mom everything, BUT mommy... Mom, ma, madre, motherrrr - that was the most common lol. I think it wasn't until I was pregnant that I started doing it, and then when Noah was born, i was sayig it more often. I think it's because we learn to appreciate them more, and recognize them more as our mothers... If that makes any sense. Noah always calls me mommy because he's little, and to him, I'm the awesomest thing EVER (even maybe better than daddy lol), and when he gets older, he will stop calling me mommy, unless he wants something I'm sure lol. And I think as adults we grow out of that innocent thought, but when something life changing comes along, we realize that our mommies are amazing, and the awesomest individuals that God has put on this earth so we go back to mommy land. I have no idea if that makes any sense, but its what I was thinking when "mommy" popped out of my mouth :)