Justin said: I met someone whose name was Patience. (with kind of a puzzled tone)
I said: that's something I need to learn. Maybe her parents had to be patient to get her.
Justin said: if we're gonna name kids according to how we feel, let's name our kid Anxious!
(and then proceeds in a super hillbilly accent "git o'er here Anxious & do yer chores")
All joking aside, we know the Lord's Word says "Wait for the Lord;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the Lord." (Psalm 27:14 NIV). It also says "Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." (Philippians 4:6 NIV), so we have presented our requests and have asked about a million people to petition for us as well. So thank you all for the prayers and please don't stop!
Saturday, February 4, 2012
Friday, February 3, 2012
Details
I'm at the pint in my reading plan where God is giving Moses direction on how. to build the ark and the tabernacle.
"Then have them make a sanctuary for me, and I will dwell among them. Make this tabernacle and all its furnishings exactly like the pattern I will show you. (Exodus 25:8, 9 NIV)
God fills up the next three chapters with every tiny little detail that must go into the pattern He has in mind. Good grief this can be hard to follow! But I read someone else's notes on these chapters and it helped me to realize one way to make this reading come alive today. God cares about the details! Every single tiny little bitty one! Yes, the big picture is important, but so are the details. No detail is too small for God. So every little tiny worry - give it to Him to handle. Every tiny little white lie or sin - ask for forgiveness. Every little good thing you do - makes Him proud. Every big huge thing you accomplish - He helps you every little step of the way. Every big struggle you endure - He will be you helper through every tough millisecond if you ask.
I haven't asked for God's help with so many details until we started this in vitro cycle, and I regret not doing it before. My eyes have been opened to all God is doing around me and I've grown even closer to Him. This tells me He really does love the details down to the minute! He wants to be there for us and to be an active part of our lives. He's just waiting for us to let Him in.
"Then have them make a sanctuary for me, and I will dwell among them. Make this tabernacle and all its furnishings exactly like the pattern I will show you. (Exodus 25:8, 9 NIV)
God fills up the next three chapters with every tiny little detail that must go into the pattern He has in mind. Good grief this can be hard to follow! But I read someone else's notes on these chapters and it helped me to realize one way to make this reading come alive today. God cares about the details! Every single tiny little bitty one! Yes, the big picture is important, but so are the details. No detail is too small for God. So every little tiny worry - give it to Him to handle. Every tiny little white lie or sin - ask for forgiveness. Every little good thing you do - makes Him proud. Every big huge thing you accomplish - He helps you every little step of the way. Every big struggle you endure - He will be you helper through every tough millisecond if you ask.
I haven't asked for God's help with so many details until we started this in vitro cycle, and I regret not doing it before. My eyes have been opened to all God is doing around me and I've grown even closer to Him. This tells me He really does love the details down to the minute! He wants to be there for us and to be an active part of our lives. He's just waiting for us to let Him in.
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Embryo status update
Just got a call from the embryologist. They were able to freeze four embryos! Amazing!
I'm at home the rest of the week, just kinda chillin out. I got up several times to pee last night- I have no idea if that has anything to do with implantation or if I just drank an excess amount of water yesterday, but I figured it was worth documenting.
I'm at home the rest of the week, just kinda chillin out. I got up several times to pee last night- I have no idea if that has anything to do with implantation or if I just drank an excess amount of water yesterday, but I figured it was worth documenting.
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
Transfer day
First of all, the nurse was not concerned over the wrong dose of steroids- yay.
Second of all, our embryos are so pretty!
It was a really cool experience to see the embryo magnified on the screen before they made the transfer. Now we just relax, take baby aspirin, steroids and progesterone and wait. There are still 6 embryos growing in the dish. The embryologist will call us tomorrow with report on what can/cannot be frozen. I go back on 2/10 for the blood pregnancy test. PS- Justin liked how he looked in the scrubs, so now he wants to be a doctor.
Second of all, our embryos are so pretty!
It was a really cool experience to see the embryo magnified on the screen before they made the transfer. Now we just relax, take baby aspirin, steroids and progesterone and wait. There are still 6 embryos growing in the dish. The embryologist will call us tomorrow with report on what can/cannot be frozen. I go back on 2/10 for the blood pregnancy test. PS- Justin liked how he looked in the scrubs, so now he wants to be a doctor.
Informational Post - what do all these meds do?
It's transfer day and I've just realized that I'm supposed to be taking 2 steroid pills twice day rather than just one twice a day. UGH!!! ***go to your happy place, Jessica, do not stress*** So, I googled "what are steroids for after retrieval?" and got this pretty cool website that lists out what each medicine is for. So, if you're interested in learning about these medications, click here.
Also, please pray that I did not mess something up!
Plan for the day - acupuncture from 9:15 - 10:15, then the transfer, then acupuncture right after the transfer, then going to mom's to get some homemade french onion soup! YUM. I love it when my family feeds me. She also brought some delicious eggrolls over on Monday. Haven't had to make dinner yet this week!
Monday, January 30, 2012
Update
So far I have 8 embryos that are looking good so they decided to push the transfer out to Wednesday! Now off to acupuncture to see if I can get some relief from this headache.
Yay!
Yay!
Waiting & Worrying
"The Lord will fight for you; you must be quiet." (Exodus 14:14 HCSB)
Easier said than done, Moses. In this context, Moses is working hard to convince the Israelites that it really was worth it to leave Egypt. The people are already weary from wandering through the wilderness and seem to have
forgotten the oppression and horrible circumstances the Lord delivered them from. They see the Egyptians coming up on them and start to give up. Moses tries to give everyone a pep talk, "but Moses said to the people, 'Don't be afraid. Stand firm and see the Lord's salvation He will provide for you today; for the Egyptians you see today, you will never see again.'" (Exodus 14:13 HCSB)
Have you ever been so far into something that you can't 'zoom out' to see the big picture? That's what happened to the Israelites. They lived a tough life in survival mode. They couldn't 'zoom out' to see all that God had done for them by letting them out of Egypt. Since they hadn't let that sink in, they couldn't see that God's hand was with them while the Egyptians were on their way to attack.
I find myself getting anxious now. What of they mess something up in the lab? What if they don't truly save all that have a chance? What if my body can't hold on to these embryos? What if I haven't done everything right? What if we do get kid(s) and we don't know what to do with them?
To manage that anxiety I am going to list things God has done for me so far:
Provided a wonderful partner to share this with.
Provided family and friends to support us through it.
Provided a great job with caring bosses and excellent insurance.
Connected us with caring, patient doctors and nurses.
Helped doctors find the weird liver bump so we can keep an eye on it but prevented that bump from being anything serious.
Helped my lining become 'gorgeous'.
Despite my tests, had me produce more than expected mature eggs.
Had more than the expected 50% of those eggs get fertilized.
So, when I look at that this, I know I've missed some and I know God hasn't left me and won't leave me. So this will be my memory verse: "The Lord will fight for you; you must be quiet." (Exodus 14:14 HCSB)
Be quiet, Jessica; God's got this.
Easier said than done, Moses. In this context, Moses is working hard to convince the Israelites that it really was worth it to leave Egypt. The people are already weary from wandering through the wilderness and seem to have
forgotten the oppression and horrible circumstances the Lord delivered them from. They see the Egyptians coming up on them and start to give up. Moses tries to give everyone a pep talk, "but Moses said to the people, 'Don't be afraid. Stand firm and see the Lord's salvation He will provide for you today; for the Egyptians you see today, you will never see again.'" (Exodus 14:13 HCSB)
Have you ever been so far into something that you can't 'zoom out' to see the big picture? That's what happened to the Israelites. They lived a tough life in survival mode. They couldn't 'zoom out' to see all that God had done for them by letting them out of Egypt. Since they hadn't let that sink in, they couldn't see that God's hand was with them while the Egyptians were on their way to attack.
I find myself getting anxious now. What of they mess something up in the lab? What if they don't truly save all that have a chance? What if my body can't hold on to these embryos? What if I haven't done everything right? What if we do get kid(s) and we don't know what to do with them?
To manage that anxiety I am going to list things God has done for me so far:
Provided a wonderful partner to share this with.
Provided family and friends to support us through it.
Provided a great job with caring bosses and excellent insurance.
Connected us with caring, patient doctors and nurses.
Helped doctors find the weird liver bump so we can keep an eye on it but prevented that bump from being anything serious.
Helped my lining become 'gorgeous'.
Despite my tests, had me produce more than expected mature eggs.
Had more than the expected 50% of those eggs get fertilized.
So, when I look at that this, I know I've missed some and I know God hasn't left me and won't leave me. So this will be my memory verse: "The Lord will fight for you; you must be quiet." (Exodus 14:14 HCSB)
Be quiet, Jessica; God's got this.
Sunday, January 29, 2012
After the shots, before implantation
Funny that the worst side effect that I've experienced throughout all of this has happened after the shots are done. I've been knocked out with a migraine since yesterday morning. I'm sorry to all my friends and family who get these on a regular basis. So this was either brought on by the anesthesia from the surgery, the hydrocodone, or the progesterone that I recently started. Yesterday I also had to start low dose aspirin and steroids. I'm also finishing up the antibiotic that I started the day before the surgery. The headache is starting to let up now but I can't stay up for long. Lotsa naps and water in my future. Not complaining, just documenting. Totally worth it. And it helps that Justin is awesome. Look out for a post tomorrow morning regarding our implantation day! I should receive a call around 8!
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