Waiting & Worrying

"The Lord will fight for you; you must be quiet." (Exodus 14:14 HCSB)

Easier said than done, Moses. In this context, Moses is working hard to convince the Israelites that it really was worth it to leave Egypt. The people are already weary from wandering through the wilderness and seem to have
forgotten the oppression and horrible circumstances the Lord delivered them from. They see the Egyptians coming up on them and start to give up. Moses tries to give everyone a pep talk, "but Moses said to the people, 'Don't be afraid. Stand firm and see the Lord's salvation He will provide for you today; for the Egyptians you see today, you will never see again.'" (Exodus 14:13 HCSB)

Have you ever been so far into something that you can't 'zoom out' to see the big picture? That's what happened to the Israelites. They lived a tough life in survival mode. They couldn't 'zoom out' to see all that God had done for them by letting them out of Egypt. Since they hadn't let that sink in, they couldn't see that God's hand was with them while the Egyptians were on their way to attack.

I find myself getting anxious now. What of they mess something up in the lab? What if they don't truly save all that have a chance? What if my body can't hold on to these embryos? What if I haven't done everything right? What if we do get kid(s) and we don't know what to do with them?

To manage that anxiety I am going to list things God has done for me so far:
Provided a wonderful partner to share this with.
Provided family and friends to support us through it.
Provided a great job with caring bosses and excellent insurance.
Connected us with caring, patient doctors and nurses.
Helped doctors find the weird liver bump so we can keep an eye on it but prevented that bump from being anything serious.
Helped my lining become 'gorgeous'.
Despite my tests, had me produce more than expected mature eggs.
Had more than the expected 50% of those eggs get fertilized.

So, when I look at that this, I know I've missed some and I know God hasn't left me and won't leave me. So this will be my memory verse: "The Lord will fight for you; you must be quiet." (Exodus 14:14 HCSB)

Be quiet, Jessica; God's got this.