Load of crap

Well... Hmmm... Ummm... How do I start this? This is my first blog post since Mom passed away. And in my last blog post she was getting all prettied up in honor of her grandkids' dance recital. We were planning what we were going to do when she got out of the hospital- talking about going shopping for dresses and planning a beach trip. Talking about how she was sad she was going to miss the recital but we would have a special viewing party whenever the recital video was complete. We were also talking about how she was going to feel better by the time the baby was born so she could come stay with me for a while & teach me how to do this mom thing. This is all still so unreal and hard to wrap my mind around. No words will do this justice but I feel the need to keep the blog going. It just really sucks that I will write my blog posts and then I won't receive messages like the ones below. Man this sucks! What a load of crap. This has been the tag line amongst the family ever since Mom passed. It's just the only way to describe it. We think it's funny because the most proper Cossette is the one to coined the phrase... so it makes us giggle. Sweet sweet Holly (she got the Cossette name by marriage - man we're lucky). Even her kids have caught on... Our pastor gave a sermon on sustaining grace and saving grace just 2 Sundays ago (how fitting- I bawled the entire time), and Holly was asking the girls a few days later if they understood the difference in the two types of grace. Holly was reminding them that saving grace is God's way of providing a way for us to Heaven, and sustaining grace is how God helps us get through... "things that are like a load of crap?" --one of the girls piped in. Yes, girlies, that's exactly what sustaining grace helps us through. "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." (Psalm 34:18 NIV).

Yes, Justin is like my Dad. Solid as a rock & silly at the same time. Thanks for teaching me how to recognize a good man, Mom. :)

My feelings would get hurt if I thought Mom wasn't reading - but I was also on hormones and my feelings would get hurt by a lot of things... I guess mom knew that and wanted to make sure I knew she was reading.

She was pretty excited. "Yiipeeeeeeee!!!!!"

I have to read this over and over again. Yes, GOD KNOWS BEST. Mom's gone to Heaven. For a reason. For HIS reason. And I have to find comfort in that. Maybe one day I'll understand that reason but for now I have to trust & have faith.

And sometimes it makes me feel just a little bit better just to say THIS IS SUCH A LOAD OF CRAP!

Makeup Artist

Whew! Busy weekend for my avocado (that's the size right now) and me! And a ton of other mommies too! My nieces' dance recital was this weekend and I get the honor of doing their makeup each year. It's so much fun especially because it gives me a chance to get super close to their sweet faces! Unfortunately the warden wouldn't let Mom outta jail to go but she wanted to "look cool like the girls" so I gave her a recital-esque makeover as well.

I'm so proud of the girls and how hard they work! They are really great dancers. One really special part was the daddy-daughter dance Jason got to do with Emily. Precious! Gave me a chance to daydream about what life with kids will be like and of course blubber a little over the thought. :-)

Hairy Baby

If the old wives tale about heartburn & lots of hair is true, I'm going to have a monkey. This child will be covered in hair. Luckily my genius mother told me about this gum she chewed when she was pregnant. I got it from Amazon today and have had one piece and I'm in love. This will be my lifesaver..,

14 week baby bump pic

Here we are at 14 weeks. Getting my energy back and starting to feel better. Heartburn is getting worse- I hope the old wives tale is true and I have a baby with a full head of hair!

12 week ultrasound

Today was our first ultrasound with Atrium. We loved Dr. Grey and had an awesome time hearing our baby's heartbeat for the first time! This was also an awesome day because Mom's doctors are saying that her kidneys are functioning and they don't think she will need dialysis anymore. And the third cool thing that's happened recently is that I got a promotion at work! God is really blessing our family. Praise HIM!

Guessing Games

I've been MIA on the blog lately- sorry! Mom has been back in the hospital trying to get better. It has been a serious guessing game as the doctors seem to be mystified by her. She's doing better every day, and the prayers are working- God is listening! So please keep praying.

Onto a more fun guessing game... We are anxious to know what kinda baby we're growing! We won't know until the end of May or the beginning of June, but it sure is fun to think about. Apparently Netflix has some ideas:

Showing

10 weeks and I'm definitely into maternity clothes. I'm gonna be a house by the end of this!

Mom went back into the hospital last weekend and had us all scared last weekend but is doing better now. We don't know when she will get out but they are taking good care of her. I went "public" with the pregnancy because I had to praise God for performing miracles to keep my mom here so she can take part in our miracle baby!